23 August 2011
Yongcai Peeder
i am always expecting you to come back yourself so that i know you still love me but you will always just go, making me feel that im loving you more than you love me


Joan Liao
i just want you t know that i loved you wholeheartedly and i hope that you'll never ever forget me. you wanted me t delete everything, i did. cause i wna respect your decision and i nv wna stop you from any you've made and will make


Yongcai Peeder
thats what i hate!!!!! i loved you whole heartedly
this time we broke up i didnt even have a single thought of trying to move on
but if we really stop contacting after ytd will you wait?


Joan Liao
why you ask if i would wait?


Yongcai Peeder
cos i will really miss you alot
3 weeks was a real torture


Joan Liao
well i said yes i will before you kept pushing me away but i doubt it'll change cos at least now i know, i rly wanted to move on but i guess it's impossible. why not you teach me how to forget someone who gaved so much to rmb?


Yongcai Peeder
hate him


Joan Liao
can you hate her?


Yongcai Peeder
if my head keep wandering i will..


Joan Liao
yea well it's hard to forget someone who gaved so much to rmb


Yongcai Peeder
yes, it's alot, the best and always will be!!!! rmb if we nv get back tgt we must the best of best friends ok! and we must spend every 5th tgt ok? no empty promises eh


Joan Liao
i promise you


Yongcai Peeder
me 2, last time girls was nothing real NOTHING but now i know how those girls feel


Joan Liao
why do you know how those girls feel....


Yongcai Peeder
as in when they fall out of love and really want that person to come back

It's my first time making a video, i spent the whole night getting this done and time check it's 5:40am now. anyway, hope that you guys will like it hehehehehehe bye bye

Dear diary,

today's a monday and i just got back from tuition. i really pray that god will make n's easy enough to get me straight to poly without taking o's cuz i've been studying like hell and trust me, home schooling is tough! anyway, i've just visited peter last wednesday and i miss him already. his dad fetched me there and back, it was really nice of him cuz he was there for me the whole time. my heart was racing so fast it felt like it was about to fly out and his dad was there to calm me down so it was not that bad but my leg felt like jelly when i stepped into the room. haha his dad ask me to hide at the side and give him a surprise and i guess he was cuz he kept smiling and till today, we both have not really mastered the skill of holding our tears back but we weren't that bad i guess haha. i had so much to tell him but when i saw him, i totally forgot everything i had to say and i had butterflies in my tummy like those dating kinda feeling. since we parted, it was the first time we saw one another and it had been 8 months. i was really happy cuz i finally got to see him and to see that his doing fine! nothing much has changed especially the feelings i have for this boy, i can't believe that we are already half way there and i can't wait for him to be back by my side. when i left, he was still standing there and i really feel the ache in my heart. of course, after everything, i had sleepless nights thinking about everything and i really hope that his doing fine inside, i would exchange anything for him to do that. all this is never an obstacle for me but rather a beautiful reminder of how much we love one another and i will forever remember all this. it's really tough this i won't deny but i know it's tougher for him in there so if he doesn't give up, why should i? i've really learn so much in life and i don't regret anything, this is only the beginning.

no great love ever came without great struggles.



yc please know that whatever happens good or bad, i will be here by your side and i will always love you. as long as you don't give up on us, i will not either and i am never going anywhere with out you. i am still standing here, right where we parted, waiting for you...



Joan