♥ Define Love???

2012-01-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

hey peter, it's already cny. i hope that you're doing fine inside? i really missed you so much and i really wished that you were here to celebrate it with me but well, one more cny to see you once again. you're left with 399 more days to go and i pray that you'll stay strong because i'm still waiting for you. honestly, i've thought of giving up sometimes but something inside keeps telling me "don't give up, you've gotta keep fighting" i know it's difficult but that's what i keep doing. it's really been a long journey and there's still a long way to go, but im getting stronger everyday, nothing is bringing me down and im fighting to live everyday just to see you once again. you know something darling? all the tough times in my life are the ones that makes me smile and i'll never forget how much we both went through but i've learn to live one day at a time, i've learn to brave all the storms. i'm not a perfect girlfriend but i'm all prepared to stay by your side in this period of time because it's all worth it and i wanna be by your side till you get back into the right path in life. i'll never be able to make it through all this while without our wonderful friends who always picks me whenever i fall and always there reminding me the reason why im holding on when i feel weak and i really thank god for having them by my side. nothing outside has ever change, we are all still waiting for you. i will see you on the day you're released, rain or shine, i will be there...............

your girlfriend.

2011-12-25T00:08:00.010+08:00

Merry x'mas 2011

Dear diary,
Today's the 25th of december and merry christmas. i spent my christmas eve with koksiong, weimin, iz, derrick, yx and natasha @ town today and it was damn crowded. this year's christmas was quite boring because i had to be home at 11 but it's ok because next year's christmas will be a better one i believe. yongcai, merry christmas to you. i hope that as you look up in the sky tonight, you will remember our last christmas and remember me. your mom is really the biggest obstacle in this journey and i really don't know how much longer i can take it because it's really very painful to know how much she still cannot accept me. i really think some times that if me not being in the picture, every thing will be so much better for you and i sincerely want all the best for you till now. nobody can ever understand my pain, nobody will. i feel like a failure because i thought of giving up but i never wanted to peter, i never did. i wished that i was much stronger because it's really very tough with out you here, nobody is here to protect me, to tell me how beautiful am i, to tell me how much they need me, to tell me that they love me but i don't blame you, i blame myself for not stopping you. i really wanna see you but i dont want you and your mom to quarrel because she's your mom and she loves you more but that does not make me love you any lesser than she does. all this really taught me alot, my future ahead seems so much brighter now but its only because of you. i hope that your mom don't take it away from me because your embrace and the memories you've left me is the only thing that kept me so strong till today... on last year's today, you were here by my side and it was the best christmas ever because i finally knew what love was and i really miss you so much. i really hope that you can feel my love for you peter, it's as wide as the ocean and please know that i never wanted to give up. i just hope that you will take good care of yourself and please know that nothing has ever change. i thank all the pillars by my side, supporting me, my bros my hostel girls and my family, i would have already fall apart without them.

Dear god, please take good care of this boy over there and never give up on him like how im never giving up on him because he really needs you now. father i also pray that you'll show him the right path in life and tell him how much i love him and miss him whenever he feel like giving up because i know it's very tough for him in there but please always be there for him in this period of time, give him the courage and strength to continue smiling and laughing like how he was back then. father i also pray that you'll also give me the strength and courage to continue walking this road alone because i never want to give up on my dear boy, i wanna be there for him till he comes out to tell him how much i love him and to say those 3 words to him because i never told him. i also hope that you'll open his mom's heart because i really want to change for the better and i hope that she can see how much i love him, just as much as she does..............merry christmas my dearest boy soo yongcai

14 more months to go

Yours faithfully, Joan

2011-12-11T13:51:00.012+08:00

My 17th birthday surprise by my wonderful friends, never expected them to do so but i really apprieciated so much because they indeed are the greatest friends by my side since forever. i don't think i'll ever be able to make it through every single thing with out them and you can say that with them by side, i'll be able to make it through, till the day he comes out because they are the pillars supporting me in my journey here and i thank god for giving me such friends. even though darling you're not by my side right now to celebrate my 17th, i'll always remember my 16th planned by you and it has already been a year since then and i'm already 17, time flies isn't it? i'm still awaiting for that day, to have you by my side again, to celebrate every other occasion you've missed out with me and till then, you will never ever ever be replaced. i hope time will just pass faster and also, for everyone to stay as one.

2011-12-03T02:16:00.004+08:00

hey darling boy,
in about 2 days time it's gonna be our 15th monthsary so here i am wishing you happy 15th monthsarys. well, even though you're not here with me but you'll forever be a part of me and you've never once left my heart, not even for a second there. i miss you so very much till words can never define how much and it's really very empty without you because you use to be the reason why i smile so much, laugh so hard every single day. wherever i go, every thing would remind me of you, us and i really wish that time could fast forward because i am still waiting for the first day of your release well everyone is and nothing has ever changed, not even my love for you peter and fact is that im loving you more and more as each day passes by. i hope that during this period of time, you will never ever give up on yourself and of course on us because nobody ever did. i'm so happy every single time i recieve your letters because those are the only things that can keep my faith going because only because of you, i'm staying so strong till today. yes, it's really hard with out you but i believe that i can make it through well we will make it through. you're already another part of me and your embrace, it's still so strong till now, it's like you've never left. i just wanna thank you for every single memories you've left me for now before and for always giving in the past. we've really been through so much, too much and i will never let anything or anyone bring me down so easily. please take good care of yourself and study hard for your o's my dear. i'm waiting for your 3rd letter and there's 15 more months to go, WE will make it through and "WE will never be the past"

2011-11-13T03:52:00.001+08:00

‎" you must really study hard, dont let people look down on you! i dont like people t look down on you or to despise you cause i know that you can do it! time will really pass fast and soon ill be by your side adding laughter to ur everyday. Joan liao, i soo yong cai is so marrying u! " notes he left in my phone...

2011-11-13T00:30:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,
it's been 2 months going 3 since i last saw him, since i last heard his voice, since i last felt his touch. i pray that lord, you'll take good care of this boy peter there. i pray that you'll b by his side, never giving up on him like how im never gonna give up on him, show him the right path in life and show him how much you love him and tell him how much i missed him. i really hope that you're doing fine inside my dear boy because you've got t stay strong. don't ever give up on yourself because nobody ever did, your family, your friends and me will always b here f you. we are all waiting f your return and we never did left your side. i really appreciated everything you've done f me before, till now, you've never gaved up on us and im really blessed having you by my side all this while. i recieved your september letter and ive alr replied you, i really missed you so so much. nothing has ever changed here especially my love f you, it just keeps getting stronger and stronger as each days passes by and i rly wished that time would just fast forward till 2013 feb so that ill b able t tell you how much i love you. the road ahead may b tough, let me b by your side, let me make your burdens lighter, let me b the one t take the bullets coming your way, let me b the one now t give. anyway, today's the 433 days tgt and looking back, ive always been the one taking and taking and taking, ive never gaved. we've been through thick and thins, ups and downs, rain and shine but we're still as strong and im really thankful f everything because you've really been the greatest boyfriend and i've never once regretted being tgt w you and i never will and because of you, my whole world changed f the better. i just want you t know darling that you've never once left my heart and that your embrace is still so so strong, it's like you've never left. i'm never ever giving up and im also very happy t have wonderful friends around me, pillars supporting me in my journey here because w/o them, i would have fallen long ago and w/o them, i would have never got up but nothing's gonna bring me down, nothing's gonna stop me from anything. today's my first homeleave so yup, it's alr november 13, it's going t b 15 more months t go darling so you've gotta b strong man. anyway, happy belated 14th monthsary peter. in less than a month, i'll b turning 17. remember about a year ago? you planned my sweet 16? see how fast time flies... soon, it's going t b my 17. it's really damn sad that you're not here w me, t witness how much ive grown t. but it's ok, we're gonna b free someday. you were a great boyfriend, a best friend, a girl friend who helps me w my hair, choosing of my clothes because i get stuck at my cupboard when i have no idea what t wear and a paranoid little girl but i love you just the way you are and nothing will ever change darling, i'll forever b by your side, count on me.

Yours forever,

Joan xx

2011-08-15T19:19:00.015+08:00

Sometimes I feel giving up and letting go is the right choice, but I just dont know how to deal with the pain afterwards.

2011-08-14T01:39:00.047+08:00

hello as you can see this is more of pictury post than wordy cos im bored and all this pictures was taken about a month ago and since i can see that my blog's kinda boring and dead ive decided t upload it all right now LOL anyway, happy belated 11th monthsary and 18th birthday my dear boy peeder. i take my words t grave that ill love you forever and ever, we're gonna b free someday and till then im sticking t you forever this i promise you..............................................................................................................................................

2011-07-12T10:27:00.008+08:00

This one's for you and me, livin out our dreams
We are right where we should be
Life my arms out wide, i open my eyes
And now all i wanna see
Is a sky full of lighter
A sky full of lighters

K i've got so much t say right now but as usual it's always all only in my head, once im about t blog ill tend t forget what t type that's why in my compositions ill always have problem but i'll still pass so TEEHEEE yea i miss alot of my friends, my girlfriends, my old friends, my school mates yes i miss them so much, i miss talking t them, sharing my problems, hanging out w my baby girls but yea im sorry i promise t make it up t you guys soon, real soon!!!!!! :'( anyway i've still got my love one here w me, even though we do quarrel(i mean which couple don't? they say it makes the r/s stronger?? well k who gives a shit...) yes we do quarrel like any other couples out there, just much more than before cos i guess we're quite apart as in distance than before? but aft this last break up, i realise how much i meant t you i realise that mayb i rly can't do it w/o you even though ive tried and i barely could make it but there's just something missing whenever you're not here and i also realise that i could nv love again, i had fun, i partied, i try my best everyday t forget, t move on, t love again but i guess you took away the ability f me t do that even how much you've disappointed me i just couldn't hate you enough t forget you, i rly wished i knew why. i wasn't sad, i wasn't feeling any pain cos i guess at that point of time i was kinda alr getting use t it so i lived my life normally believing that, that pain i took willingly would make me stronger and yes it did. even aft hearing what you did, i just can't hate you, i still replied you cos i guess deep inside i still loved you even how i tell everyone that asked if i got over you, i said i did but i guess i didn't... this few days tgt is a time ill forever remember, you say words deep down inside you and i felt you. i rly cherish every single day w you since then till now and i rly wished that we could stay like this forever but i know myself that time's running out, days are numbering...... i only regretted one thing is that i nv stopped you from doing it, i blame myself till now and the only thing i can do is help you but i guess i didn't help much cos you still have t suffer but don't worry cos im here w you. i just wna say that if ever there comes a day, if we have t part f long, i will still love you well ill love you forever cos i can't love anybody else but you i have no idea why but yes just you. we will go through anything everything big small together unless you tell me you can find someone else who can love you more than i do ill let you go cos true love is when the other's happiness is much more important than yours, you'll want t see the other happier even if you know that you can't do it w/o them you'll let them go. well even though ill nv forget all the wrong things you've did, ill also nv forget all the great things you did f and t me. i wished that we could lay like this forever but i guess we can't and that's fate, we can't fight w fate. i don't promise you that we can stay like this forever but right here, right now, i promise that ill always love you. in reality promises gets broken everyday everymin everysec but my dear, i take my words t grave that ill wait f you, i promise you cos a part of me will always b w you.

2011-06-06T19:04:00.003+08:00

I'll back off, so that you can live better.

2011-05-24T02:38:00.004+08:00

I LOL-ED AND I'M STILL LOL-ING AT IT SERIOUSLY IT NV GETS OLD.

well, life has been good...... anyway just a update in my life, ha ha i've decided t study but in beauty line so yep i've got t get enrolled b4 4th of june like so damn fast right? but oh well beats doin' nothing in life, at least i know where i'm going! i'm still thinking if i should like work part time cos i'm rly bored at home HAIZ. Btw today, yc went t cut his hair short HA HA LOL i mean i've watched his short hair t long hair now long hair t short hair and we're gna hit 9th soon time flies doesn't it???????????????????????????????????????????????????
ha ha ha ok i know my blog damn sian but please bare w me cos there's nothing much happening in my life YET but wish me luck guys! i mean hope i don't give up halfway like i always do, my husband's my motivation this time. we're gonna b free someday and till then, i'll always love this boy.

2011-05-05T23:01:00.009+08:00

Happy birthday chaopo and natasha,
happy 8th soo yongcai

Celebrated cp's and our 8th @ wild wild wet today so ha ha was kinda fun but it was fucking tiring and hot.... but my poor boyfriend's like sick now was suppose t go v4 anyway hope he recovers fast sad boy keeps tearing just now.
Anyway thanks f everything my dear, like all the things you gaved and today i rly had fun man. Time flies and it's alr our 8th, i hope that we will make it through like how we overcomed everything together before cos i wanna spend the rest of my life w you too and whatever happens, im sticking t you so no fear,
you can count on me forever.

ok updates in my life:
ill b starting work this coming monday @ love mobile????
& also applying f beauty school v soon so wish me luck guys!!!!

2011-04-14T22:37:00.002+08:00

hi. i'm currently making some changes in life right now so if you don't hear from me any more, you're probably one of em........

Will BRB

2011-04-05T00:56:00.001+08:00

Happy 7th month.

2011-04-03T01:19:00.005+08:00

well i love this boy and times flies cause 2 more days t our 7th, isn't it fast? ha ha i still remember how we were good friends before, how a crush by accident changes into a promise of a life time, how much we've been through.............................................

Anyway, i need a job soon rly. So boring at home i wanna die alr, so tmr im going f interview yes i know again. hopefully, they hire me or ill whack em no la just kidding ha ha wish me luck muacks!

2011-03-28T21:50:00.017+08:00

our sat @ my place.........................................
well tmr is the day, a lill afraid but everything's gonna b fine. (fingers crossed)

"She ignores all the other guys who wants her because she's too bz noticing him."

2011-03-23T22:12:00.022+08:00

Pictures taken @ Sentosa ha ha a happy day, veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy happy day but i broke my foundation on that day so not so happy day ok but now peeder bought me back so it's ok he he. he also got me a perfume from body shop w a surprise aww, love him so much.

Alright that's all f now, update soon again ok bye bye blogger

2011-03-21T01:40:00.010+08:00

A very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very long time ago........................................
ok just found it in my documents so ive decided t upload it, when i had my long hair which was like last year or last last year? ha ha fucking long ago seriously.

i miss my best friend.

2011-03-18T21:46:00.005+08:00

(yc daddy me jon)

(spot the extra behind lol)

went sentosa today w my wonderful family & yc, ha ha had quite alot of fun and it's been quite a long time since we had this type of family day since forever since aft what happened t me and yc? pictures taken @ my phone, my cam went out of batt half way damn saddening but oh well we all had fun and i'm so god damn tired! my parents, aww i just dont know how much i love em like words can't express yknow? they still accept me f who i am, still loves me alot alot and alot still respect every decision i make and that is what makes them so great and i love em!
well i asked my mom about r.o.m, i asked if we were allowed t w probation she says that she's not sure but if can shes ok w it but it's a forever thing a commitment not something t b played about but its ok cause can settle down alr and she can b a grandma when she's 41! ha nuts! nah i dont want kids sooooo soon! i want t have a world of 2 first man ^_* the greatest part is that she'll give us our blessings awwwww i love you guys alot and i'm rlly sorry f everything ive done in my 16 years of life. i was nv a filial daughter but ill try my best this time, ill not let u guys done again, i promise.
they are wonderful!

anyway, i know my blog's kinda boring no peektures and stuft ok ok ok ok ok ok ill update soon w pictures gao gao ok im gna go bathe now and my momsy gna apply some cream on my back, the sunburn's killing me! bye bye~

( just 4 fun)

2011-03-10T21:41:00.005+08:00

"We'll go through every thick and thins together."

i want you t b happy, i will still wish you well w or w/o me. let's not make any promises now cause i hate it when promises becomes empty. but i, can put my heart in this that ill always love you only soo yongcai. ill nv want t see u get hurt, ill nv. maybe it's my fault f not stopping you, im sorry. let's see what our future would b like, if we are meant t b. if we're not, just remember this. you're the guy, ive loved the most so far. and, you've nv failed in any way. i feel happy every day w you, i do so please don't give up on yourself cause i've nv gaved up on you and i nv will...

2011-02-26T03:27:00.007+08:00

hey all, the strongest women, the greatest mom.

Well sorry f not taking the time t hear your pain your sorrows your agony as i was busy w my own life, you're the strongest women ive met but you're too strong f too long. ill respect what ever desicion you've made just the way you did t me even how much it hurts f you, as long as you're happier. Thanks f everything you've done f me since then, thanks f being such a good mom, thanks f always telling what what's right and what's wrong, thanks f giving the best advices, thanks f making me who i am today how strong ive been. Thank you so much and i wish you all the best...........
This goes out t those whose lucky t hav your mom by your side, treasure them

Bye mom, i love you. xx
no one will, can ever replace you.

2011-02-24T02:26:00.003+08:00

Was reallllllllllllly bored that time.................

Anyway, time, please pass faster faster faster faster faster faster faster dear lord i want it t go faster faster faster i don't care what im gonna miss what ill miss i just want it t pass faster faster FASTER.

and im going interview tmr so wish me luck ok @ nex thx t amelia so wish me luck wish me luck wish me luck wish me luck BUT i don't know what t wear i dont know what t wear i dont know what t wear o well ok wish me luck again wish me luck again and wish me luck again goodnight i want 2 sleep soon soon soon wish me luck and i want time t pass faster faster faster stupid clock tick faster!!!!!!!!!!!

ok night. (please pass faster.)

2011-02-23T00:46:00.002+08:00

Was @ ikea checking out f furnitures....

well even though things aren't going how we planned b4, i really want april t come soon, i really hope nothing happens, i want this t end. yea, home at 9 everyday, my home. But i believe all this will come t an end soon, i believe in us. finding a job t make time fly!!!!!!!!! i quit my previous job because the environment sucks and the boss is a perv and his fucking annoying w him and his dick face so ha ha I QUIT!!!!!!!!! And anyway, went reporting w hun just now and his po just says that he has t b good f this 2 weeks so home every day by 9 and no sneaking out f him my poor boy. i hope that every thing will b fine f him and us, kinda not use it not by his side, him waking me up early in the morning, him annoying me as always but oh well have t get use t it then.

Alright that's all f now now now webcamming w my favourite boy of all timez,
meeting wanchin tmr f moooooovies he he.

Bye bye

2011-02-20T03:01:00.009+08:00

well our saturday just 4 fun*******

Time flies and you're left w 40 days! hope it continues like b4~
Love ya yea ya update again real soon.........

2011-02-18T20:37:00.003+08:00

Hihi how did y'all spent Valentines day ?_?
i i i spended mine @ Town w of cause my boyfriend n company, caught "Just do it" it was an awesome show btw(Thumbzup) ha ha was @ bliss b4 that, waited f every one t arrive. Yup that was how i, we spended our Valentines Day.

I've recieved a v v special gift on that day, that gift was love from my v special one. I just wanna tell him how much i love him too or means t me , i don't need any gifts, i don't need any roses, i don't need any bling blingz, i don't need any bears or soft toys but i need you t promise me that i'll b the one you'll love always and on every feb 14th valentines day, you'll spent it w me..................Because i'm gna spent mine w you.

I'm v happy that things are going smoothly again f every thing, we both are working now but different jobs ha ha he wants me t stay home but it's boring plus i'll b home w his dad and sis only...... :( i'd rather help w the income and every thing and also have a job myself so that we have more $$$$$$$$$ whoooooop It's time I JOAN t stop lazing around man. Sooo i got back my old job Gitos Lan @ Bedok lol ha ha boring but o well damn slack any way so who carez, it's f the time being only but we both are working full time n ill always end later then him so he keeps complaining how every time i reach home he'll b sleeping alr and how when he wakes up i wouldn't b home alr complain complain complain kpkb kpkb nag nag nag SO i change my time t 12-10 rather then 11-11 but weekends mine's 9-9 if i'm not wrong Zzzz ha ha he damn cute at times like that......... alright, gna continue w work now!!!!!!!!!!!
Hav t keep keying things here and there mail every where, can't even have time t smoke on my first day :(

BBtc~

2011-02-11T15:58:00.010+08:00

"Dear diary, we divorced just yesterday............

i love or loved him whole heartedly and every now and then, on every 5th or when anything good happens she'll look up t the sky and think of him and wonders if he will ever do the same but even if he doesn't i'll pretty much understand cause i walked away.....

through this 5 months, there's really many ups and downs and every of it taught me more and more esp how last christmas taught me the real meaning of true sacrificial and how last christmas taught me the value of love. ive truly enjoyed my everydays w you i think you should know who you are i really did and ive nv forget what you've done f my birthday preparations, thanks t you i've got a memorable sweet 16. actually it's kinda surprising t b able t go through all this w you pretty much smoothly cause every quarrel we have, we will always make it out stronger and im glad that ive met someone like you........

All i want right now is f you make it t april 1st w/o extending w/o any of your going t leave me behind outside anymore cause if you remembered, you promised that you would not well not even as a friend and i hope that ill still b the first one you'll turn t and say yay i dont hav t b home by 9 anymore yay freedom, even if im not the first mayb if we still remain as good friends or bestest friends whatever i will still b happy f you cause we've been counting down since then tgt...............

And also, i want you t stay happy no matter what happens. you deserve a better someone, who can really give you happiness and everything elsei couldn't. ill really b happy f you and ill give you guys my blessings no matter what.
Nv giv up on me, ill nv giv up on you. You're everything i need and oh just look how much we've been through.......
also, promise me something that every single time you see a sun rise or a sun set w anyone or happened t just pass by, i hope that you'll remember how we watched ours and how ill always b there f you i said that day on the lorry that morning cause that moment was a moment nothing ill ever trade w and whenever you think about that, i hope that you'll remember me and smile. dont ever forget me as the girl you've loved the most cause i gaved you my heart it's yours now, i want you t keep it w you cause wherever you go, ill b w you..

oh even if we stay as bestest friends till next time, i still wanna b the first t know anything everything or the first you'll share them w cause thats what good friends are f yea?

Lastly, even when you forgot and if ever we meet again somewhere down the road, ill b the keeper of our memories cause i dont want you t hold on t memories that would only keep hurting you....

xoxo
Remember, Girl loves. boy
she nv did stopped loving

2011-02-05T23:16:00.001+08:00

happy 5th

2011-01-25T23:41:00.004+08:00

well time really flies.
Since im uloading pics, ive decided t blog too. ha ha

ha ha ha ha cny is coming, fast isnt it??????????????????????????????
:O

2011-01-15T14:43:00.010+08:00

met peg (real aunt ) @ her bf's house................... hehe spended some quality time and got t know my future "uncle in-law" think it's been about 2 years since i saw her cause my parents always skip cny reunion so yea.... LOL ha ha

oh yc was there too ^^

anyways, cny is near whooOoOp.. currently @ yc's house, just done w the pictures taken at fb. alright gna go bathe then wake him up v soon~

Byebye!

2011-01-04T04:47:00.002+08:00

black hair again and im lovin' it aww..................

2011-01-04T03:58:00.004+08:00

heylo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how did you guys spent christmas and new year? well i had a blast w mine even though it was kinda happening at first but oh well i had a blast really w my dearest boyfriend and friends he he. Time flies doesnt it! it's alr 2011! well a brand new start f everyone including me me me cause im going back t school this year YES i am!
my plans f this year
-study hard f my n's and hopefully complete it
-my yc t finish his days of restriction this coming april(see that clock ticking below)
that's all f now.......................................

wanna know my looking forward?
=chinese new year hehe $.$
=when that clock stops ticking
=thailand trip?
=shopping ASAP
cant think of anymore yet but I WILL update soon.................................. anyway i can't believe it but yes im going school again and my boyfriend's gonna b my motivation hehe but sadly im not going tmr cause çp's court tmr and ive gotta register back first be4 i can even go back. ohya i havent got my school shoes yet but ive dyed my hair back t black alr and im loving it more now ha ha. alright gtg update again real soon bb!

1 more day t 4th month!

wanna keep a bf like this 4eva natashawong

2010-11-25T23:45:00.004+08:00

cine just now, caught bruce lee well quite a nice show hehe.
finally we both had a day off cuz we have been quite bz w work so i enjoyed myself v much..............................

yay yay yay YAY 10 more days t 3rd, 16 more days t my sweet sixteen whoop~~
XOXO

2010-11-20T22:38:00.010+08:00

Hihihi,
did i told u guys how me n yc spended our 2nd? ok so here goes.. we went t zoo w briandon n natasha. hehe fun but it rained halfway but overall it was fun max ha~~ oh n i got bb a fred perry T 1 day b4 our 2nd n passed it t him then he got me back the same one the next day on our 2nd b4 zoo so i guess it's like a couple T. He n briandon surprised me at the mrt but actually they wanted t come my house but i left alr cuz they told me t meet @ hg mall. Aww failed but isn't he sucha sweetheart?
haa.
Well, today's my little brother's 6th birthday, bb came over f awhile.. well, this few days have been work yc work yc work n work. His also working now so both of us have been working our asses off. Sigh~~~~~

Oooooooooooooooooooo ya,
can't wait f mine n bb's birkenstock slipper whoop~~~~~~~~~~
xoxo

2010-10-24T01:05:00.004+08:00

Hi, i just realized that it's been a long time since i had a wordy post so why not... since im bored + my fat boyfriend falled t sleepzzzz. well life has been rather good and of cuz it has been better cuz i've got him w me all the while reminding me stufts i've got t do cuz i forget things easily... most importantly, i really don't know what ill do w/o him, i think ill just get a schedule book or smth but i don't think he'll b that easy t b replaced isn't it? kekex. ohya and did i mention that i've suddenly got so interested and into lion dance that i can go dong qi dong qi dong qi for no reason then yongcai would go omg you're in love w it alr la die. aww it's quite fun ok, mayb cuz i don't do much.... LOL LOL

Ohyea, i miss my happypillz.
Update again soon
Xoxo.

2010-10-20T02:50:00.002+08:00

I always thought falling in love a second time was impossible,
well you proved me wrong and you, made an exception,
and i love you so..

F.Y.I pictures taken @ sentosa's at my fb so go check it outz hehe.

2010-10-05T00:04:00.009+08:00

The rest of the pics are at my fb.

Happy first month, soo yongcai.
Thanks for the universal studio and also, thanks for making me believe in love again.

i love you, so wide so deep..

2010-09-27T02:36:00.004+08:00

Dear sweetheart,
8 more days t our first month.. Time flies?

Love, Joan.

2010-09-24T17:07:00.007+08:00

5th sep'10
A new beginning,
a new start in life,
a new love and his name is called Soo yongcai.
Someone so sensible, so incredible and i love him so..

Oh, and follow me up twitter.
Love, Joan.

2010-08-06T21:05:00.004+08:00

“We're always from lovers to strangers, i already got use to the pain and my tears have already dried since back than. And, im always the bad guy. Ohwell, everyone deserves a new start, a fresh beginning.

Takecare, And last long. i wish you well.

2010-08-03T09:41:00.002+08:00

Even the strongest flames dies off too.

i never thought that you actually told me that and i never thought that i could hate you so much. But i never wanted you to take your words back, and i never wanted to do anything to hurt your love one. please dont get me wrong, i feel happy for you.

2010-08-01T03:51:00.028+08:00

@ town 31/07,

Credits , celeste huang.

2010-07-31T04:41:00.004+08:00

I.can't.seem.to.hate.you.

2010-07-27T02:35:00.011+08:00

xxxx
i just wished that you and i could continue breathing , but why did you stop?
Goodbye , and don't ever look back .

2010-07-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

Life's a bore nowadays , need to go school more often .

Time's catching up on the both of us , i don't know what to do either .

Nothing else .

Still on holiday mood i guess , need to meet up with Celeste soon .

2010-07-05T12:59:00.007+08:00

Update!

Takecare aldonis when you're inside, ill miss you man.

Son's court have been postponed to august, Happy news?

Omar coming out next year on my birthday from army! But he will miss my birthday this year, Can't wait! C:

12th june , Happy belated birthday my dear celestehuang! My computer spoil so i couldn't blog.

19th june , Happy 6th months CelesteHuang!

24th june ,, Happy 16th monthsary kelvin Tan!

3rd july , happy birthday to Kelvin's Grandfather!
Went to his godfather house to celebrate his birthday.

Caught Twilight The Eclipse afterwards, *thumpsup!

I miss my girls, my 2 darling Aiqi & Caiyin very much. It's been so long since we met up hur? Meet you lovables soon!

Ohya! happy youth's day everybodee today! C:

2010-05-04T23:40:00.002+08:00

Just because she comes off strong ,
Doesn't mean she didn't fall asleep crying.
And even though she acts like nothing's wrong,
Maybe she's just really good at lying.

2010-04-25T23:03:00.001+08:00

I always tell myself.

It doesn't matter how you falled, or how deep you've falled.
It's how you get back up, That matters

2010-04-25T22:21:00.002+08:00

Happy 14th monthsary, sweetheart!

Obviously, i've learn how to forgive and put all the past behind.
Cause, Forgiveness is a form of love i tell myself.
And Cause, you've showed me how important i was and it wasn't all your fault.

Thank you, For always making me your very first priority and for always being there for me, supporting me in every ways. I can never ever frown, when i've got you, it also means than i can never have any wrinkle. I love you till now, tomorrow, later, midnight, the next day, the next week, the next month, next year,, till forever plus secs to mins to hours. You = love. And, yes i love you.

Love you fucktard. My bestest friend, my boyfriend, my honey, my sweetheart, my love,
Kelvin Tan.

2010-04-20T20:40:00.006+08:00

4 more days, to our 14th monthsarys tgt.

Went home again w kelvin, today.
My home became such a quiet place, don't know what happened but everything seemed to have already fallen apart. sometimes, i would miss mom. But sometimes, i can't seem to miss but more of hate because she left this home. i feel like im about to break down even how much i tell myself to stay strong, it's really hard to keep staying that way. But it's okay, because im not afraid to fall, because i know every single time i fall, i would always get up and because i know, i've got all the pillars around me, supporting me, making me strong once again.

Mom.
i don't know how am i gonna forgive you but i still want you to know that wherever you are, i still pray for you and wish you well. Hope that you would stop gambling and drinking but take good care of your health.

Love, Joan

2010-04-09T19:48:00.001+08:00

Finally ,
went home and visited my siblings and dad w kelvin .
kind of missed them .

2010-04-04T22:16:00.002+08:00

Work, work and work..

/will seldom be updating, busy.
Takecare everybody.
(L)

2010-04-01T23:46:00.011+08:00

Happy birthday, Brian Xie. Takecare, Zi An.
Happy April fools day.

30th- Celebrated w brian after work, bought cake to his house downstairs w kelvin, zhenkang & kenghoe. Smashed cake, failed~ So, They decided to surrender th cake to brian, Than whack him in the lift. Slacked awhile, Than cabbed home.

1st- Mcys programme, Eunos, worked, home. Tired ttm.

/
such a disappointment.

Trusted you so much. treated you like my real blood, but have you?

So,
What are sisters for?

This past few days have been really really tough and awful. Mcys programme, hospital, work, work and work. Trying to distract myself,, Cause the reality is too much for me. Still trying to stay strong

But,,
I still wanna thank my Girlfriends, celeste, kenghoe, zhenkang, brian and many others.............
Really don't know what i'll do w/o you guys man (L)
Thanks, everyone.

2010-03-30T17:34:00.002+08:00

hate having so much problems in life.
i wanna be much stronger , to be able to make it and not fall apart.